Happy New Year!!!
How’s it going so far? Have you made a healing theme for yourself?
The theme I created for myself this year is to feel my Wholeness always – 24 hours! I know, it’s quite a big dream. But I wanted to challenge myself to really stay awake and connected!
Here we are at day 10 of January 2023, and I definitely have not felt my Wholeness all day every day! I say this with a smile though, because I am satisfied with the effort I have put forth so far, with my awareness and attention to the theme, and I am happy to share my interesting discovery. In attempting to connect with my Wholeness, I have found my mind being drawn continuously to these two necessary ingredients: LETTING GO and TRUSTING.
This is interesting to me because I had not quite expected them to be at the forefront, since my main interest is feeling my Wholeness. However, they are essential. Since I am already Whole at the level of my soul, it would seem that all I need to do is lean into this bright, loving, fulfilled feeling. Easy to say, right? But so hard to do. And what makes it hard? Well, this is what I see when I observe myself carefully…
There is a constant bombardment of stimulation – from inside my own brain as well as from the world around me – of which I keep reacting to. All this stimulation makes me uncomfortable in some way, so there is an automatic reaction of even more thoughts and more emotions, more assumptions and expectations. It seems to be a never-ending feedback loop of reaction. These continuous stress responses pull me away from the peace of my Wholeness again and again.
There is only one thing to be done to cut this loop: let go of the reactions. But letting go is also easier said than done! It can be scary, confusing, and hard to grasp. However, it becomes so easy when I can trust.
Trust. Another tough topic. It was my theme word in 2021 and I practiced that year to awaken the sense of trust in myself. In 2023 so far, what I am awakening to is the importance of an even deeper sense of trust in the universe itself. A sense of trust that everything must be happening for my growth, my healing, my awakening, my transformation; if I choose to believe this is true, my sense of trust expands exponentially.
If I can catch the sense of trust, I can let go. All the thoughts, emotions, reactions, assumptions and expectations become insignificant. They fall away naturally. Then, I can return to the Wholeness of my soul. I can realign with it.
Some days I find myself chanting it inside my mind: Trust, Trust, Trust.
I get unexpected news, “Trust, Trust, Trust”
Things don’t go as I had planned or hoped for, “Trust, Trust, Trust.”
Old habits come flooding back in response to new situations, “Trust, Trust, Trust.”
My body does weird things, “Trust, Trust, Trust.”
My mind does weird things, “Trust, Trust, Trust.”
You get my point 🙂
Let go and trust. Let go and trust. Let go and trust and return to my Wholeness. It’s always right there, waiting for me. And maybe all of this wild and crazy life is just an opportunity to practice remembering who I am. And practicing to let go of who I am not.
This is my interesting discovery of 2023. So far so good, I would say!
Is your new year treating you well? Do you have a theme for your growth and transformation? Please feel free to share in the comments. I would love to hear all about the healing intentions you have for the year ahead!